ACT OF CONTRITION

Jesus, Forget and Forgive

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          Right after I received the prayer, Heart of Jesus, once in agony, pity the dying, and began saying it, intermittently, I have felt this bubble up in me, unbidden, Forgive me, Lord, I have sinned. I thought it could be to warn me against spiritual pride. And to seek His mercy for my own sinfulness. Or to remind me that I have not done all I should and could for lost and dying souls.

          So, whenever the breezes brushed past my heart, I whispered, Forgive me, Lord, I have sinned. And then, I tried to go back to the prayer, Heart of Jesus, once in agony, pity the dying.

          But I faintly sensed that prayer being lifted away, out of my spirit’s reach. I thought it was perhaps due to my being under the weather recently. But this morning, when I stopped by my daily prayer nook, it became clear, very clear, that I needed to pray the cleansing prayer for myself, because this was what the angel held out to my spirit:

 

Act of Contrition

Forgive me my sins, O Lord, forgive me my sins;

the sins of my youth, the sins of my age, the sins of my soul,

the sins of my body, my idle sins, my serious voluntary sins,

the sins I know, the sins I do not know;

the sins I have concealed so long, and which are now hidden from my memory.

I am truly sorry for every sin, mortal and venial,

for all the sins of my childhood up to the present hour.

I know my sins have wounded Thy Tender Heart, O my Savior.

Let me be freed from the bonds of evil through Thy most bitter Passion, O my Redeemer.

O my Jesus, forget and forgive what I have been.

         

          I want to press this close, till it marks my spirit, to pray it as often as I breathe,

O my Jesus, forget and forgive what I have been.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lent 21 ~ Words on the Heart

Take with you words, and return to the LORD ~ Hosea 14:3

          Yesterday, in the story about St John Vianney and his mystical response to a woman whose husband had taken his own life, the saint said that the deceased had been spiritually saved because of the last prayer he had uttered: the Act of Contrition.

          For some reason, I felt I needed to give the words of that prayer to others contemplating various deaths. Not to physically send the prayer, nor to tell them to pray it. But to pray the words for them who cannot. To say the prayer on their behalf.

          To write the words of contrition on hearts that would otherwise never contemplate them.

          As ever the Doubting Thomas, I did wonder if what I was doing was right.

          But there was no time to be lost. I went ahead anyway, due to the exigency – I was saying the Act of Contrition to stop deaths by human will.

          Today, the verse from Hosea 14:3 holds my spirit as I drift by.

Take with you words, and return to the LORD

          I know it refers to my own penitence.

          But could it mean too the prayers we pray in the waters of love and mercy – which give the words of contrition to be written on dying hearts?

Lent 20 ~ Between the Parapet and the Water

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From the book, Cure Of Ars

There was a woman who told St. John Vianney that she was devastated because her husband had committed suicide. She wanted to approach the great priest but his line often lasted for hours and she could not reach him.

          She was ready to give up and in a moment of mystical insight that only a great saint can receive, John Vianney exclaimed through the crowd, “He is saved!”

          The woman was incredulous so the saint repeated, stressing each word, “I tell you he is saved. He is in Purgatory, and you must pray for him. Between the parapet of the bridge and the water he had time to make an act of contrition.”

          It is the morning after Westminster. I don’t know how many lifebooks will close this day through human will – those who don’t want others to live; those who themselves don’t want to live.

          But I am alive and living and wanting to live.

          And I want others to live as well. In this life and in the next.

          So, for the remaining hours of the day, I offer the Act of Contrition for the world. For all those contemplating ending lives – theirs or others’.

          It saved that man in the story. It will save others too.

ACT OF CONTRITION

My God,
I am sorry for my sins with all my heart.
In choosing to do wrong
and failing to do good,
I have sinned against You
whom I should love above all things.
I firmly intend, with Your help,
to do penance,
to sin no more,
and to avoid whatever leads me to sin.
Our Savior Jesus Christ
suffered and died for us.
In His name, my God, have mercy.