Lent 22 ~ Apples from My heart

fruit-2905849_1280

Last night I went out, as always to say good night. The night air had a slight touch of coolness. In the sky, I saw the Milky Way. This is rarely visible, so of course I went out to the field to get the best view. There were more than a million stars out and I made a lot of wishes. The familiar scent of apples in various stages filled the air. I stood amongst the fallen apples and under a trail of stars for a good while. . . . and when I was able – I said good night with a grateful heart.   ~ Michele Warren, The Rabbitpatch Diary

 

          In one of her latest comments, Linda Raha mentioned about going over the blessings of the day when we go to bed. If it didn’t stick with me as it should have then, it certainly did now.

          It is a terrible thing to not be grateful. In my life, some of the most trying people have always been the ones who are incredibly ungrateful. They bite and snark more at life than life deserves simply due to diminished gratitude. In an ungrateful heart, there’s little softness to absorb the hard knocks of life, to soften the blows that must fall upon us in its seasons. So, not only is pain felt in all its depth, I suspect it is also exaggerated because it has too much space to grow. Life with an ingrate can be beyond tolerable. You can be worn to the bone of soul trying to make the ingrate happy and keep it that way for some hours of sanity. Life in a home shared with one is to live in perpetual darkness; to be in the light you have to be away from that person.

          But that only makes coming home that much harder. There’s nothing worse than having light touch your soul but then later having to return to a darkness that abhors the light. Some forms of ingratitude is exactly that: a dark that cannot tolerate the light of thankfulness.

          Today is Friday and it is my day of atonement and reparation. Today, I atone for all the times I have been anything less than grateful for every little sweetness God has pressed into the fold and creases of my life – and sadly, there have been too many of those instances. It is always the easier option to call someone out for a failing; looking inside and facing up to the same fault is never pleasant.

          But that is the special grace of Lent.

Even now, says the LORD,
return to me with your whole heart,
for I am gracious and merciful.   ~  Joel 2: 12 – 13

          Tonight, Michele Warren’s memories of apple~days stir to life one of my own, of a child long ago, nourished by the sweetness of apples gifted from the heart.

          So, to my God I return with a gift I haven’t offered my Lord enough, apples from my own heart.

 

 

6 comments

  1. I think I would love to read that Rabbitpatch Diary book! It sounds like my kind of book! How lovely to look up at a sea of stars, and smell those apples. There is so much beauty in an orchard. In an orchard, we understand the goodness of God so clearly; there is such a plenitude of good fruit! It takes time for the rosy apples within our hearts to blossom; and yet, God love us before the first blush of ripening fruit. How blessed we are by His love and grace!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. The perfect, loving Father, He accepts every apple we give Him, even the blemished and the ones bequeathed before ripeness.
      I know you will enjoy Michele’s blog, The Rabbitpatch Diary. Like yours and Ann’s blogs, it’s a blog where the miracle of the loaves happens each time – no matter how many times you visit, there’s always enough love to go around for everyone.

      Liked by 1 person

  2. Truth upon truth here. Today I returned kindness to one who constantly shoots snark darts at me. The result was unexpected – she seemed shocked and then realized that it felt good. I doubt that she will miraculously change her ways but I may have made someone else’s interactions with her less painful.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. This is such a profound post! And just what I needed to read, too. It is so easy to focus on all the disappointment in our life, and all the ways that things didn’t work out just exactly as we had planned and hoped. That just makes us bitter, and jealous of others who don’t seem to be walking quite as difficult a road as we are. But once we open our eyes to the blessings that are all around us, and the many gifts that God has place in our lives, then the difficulties that we face seem so much smaller! Thanks for reminding us of how important a grateful heart is, and just how essential it is to a happy life.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s