I look within me and around me, and almost everywhere my gaze falls, I see something that I cannot bring before the eyes of heaven, because it is not right, because it is not pure. So much of it is old, sores from the past that fester on into the present. The cleaning and cleansing that I need…. it is much work indeed, that I’m tempted to bow in defeat even before I begin.
The doing must be Mine. ~ Anonymous, In Sinu Jesu: When Heart Speaks to Heart – The Journal of a Priest at Prayer.
I see those words and I wonder, Am I treading where I should not? Am I attempting what I am not called to?
Indeed I am. But I struggle to let go and let God. Some days I can. Some days I just cannot. Partly because of pride, because I somehow think I can do God’s job for Him. But mainly because I cannot accept that good meant for me need not always be earned the hard way – my way.
Nonetheless, God has been clear: Let Go and Let God. I need to bring every rock and pebble before God’s Eyes, and rest each and all within His Heart. I need to learn this hymn of surrender.
Immediately, I sense plans and ideas clamour at my heart.
But only one is needed.
Give the first place to the adoration that I have asked of you, and still ask of you, and you will see wonders. ~ Anonymous, In Sinu Jesu: When Heart Speaks to Heart – The Journal of a Priest at Prayer.